Desolate and Alone |
Man is the only creature who can will, and he wills to listen to God and to God alone, not to his mind or to his emotions. God invented us and we are to work according to His design.
In my true center, I know myself, and as I listen and do as I am told by God, then I become who I am, the real me that God invented to accomplish His specific purposes in and through my life.
I am and I become a little city, in the center being the Presence of God, and I, in turn, engage in the presence of others. The gates of my city should always be open so that I give myself away.
Satan lies to have us live for ourselves, that we can be complete in ourselves. Adam willed to be present to himself, this broke his relationship with God, and Adam became alone. Also he became fractured from his wife. Now they can't communicate with God, they can't communicate with each other from a sharing standpoint but only as separate and independent units to serve their needs only.
Adam blamed Eve, no longer protected her , the giving of self to serve others evaporated. Instead of a live city, Adam and rest of man became a ghost town, desolate.
Believing the lie that I am complete in myself, then realize that it is not working, I begin to use others, and things of this life to fill the vacuum. I begin to live shame, that I am not perfect, I should be filled with all adequacies for all situations and able to meet all situations but it is not working.
I keep myself closed to others, so that they can't see my inadequacies, and see who I truly am, a fraud, not a god as satan said I would be, what's wrong, I got to make it!I put on various masks and pretend I got it made, don't need anyone, I am sufficient. I tell everyone I meet, at church, at work, etc. I am okay, things are great, etc. Self talks to self all day long that I am great, I got it made or I will make it, etc. Can't share self with others, but only draw from them to meet my needs.
I am full of self, pompous, rigid, under strict control, hiding self, terrified the world will see who I truly am, a weakling , full of fears. Seeks others to tell him how great he is. His only will in life is to will to protect himself, obsessed with his own needs, not room or ability to share and to give to others.
Ps. 84 -The Sun of Righteousness shines on us, the darkness, and gives light unto our souls. Jesus became that desolate city, became forsaken for us.
In Jesus came the Holy Spirit, the true center in any city. My suburbs is in bad shape, but the center lives in me right now, the Holy Spirit. The false self sends surges and begins the self talk that I am great , that I can make it, and become a great christian by my own efforts. But the false self was judged in Jesus. Now my will has received His will, Eph. 3:19-20 ;Phil. 2:12-13.
Jesus is my true self and when the false self surges, I reject it, and state that I am in union with Jesus Christ, my true self and center, I am all that Jesus is.
Ro. 6:3-6 ; lCor. 1:30 -I choose to be completely dependent upon Jesus Who is the source of my life. Isa. 62:4 -we become an open city; Ps. 143:5-10 - Here one deliberately chooses to listen to God.